I think
the [clears throat] most powerful class
I ever took
was linguistics 101 [snorts]
at University of Illinois.
I was amazed that we spent the first
months I think of the class
on human development on early childhood
development
watching videos about little boys and
girls
sitting in rooms and do they do they
look at each other in the eye? Do they
face perpendicular or directly towards
each other?
Do they compete or do they lie?
And we spent a couple weeks
talking about cases where
humans never developed language,
where uh in some cases a a girl was uh
confined in a closet and I think she was
chained to a toilet and she never was
taught to speak.
And people who are never taught to speak
or never taught language,
they never wire the parts of their brain
for semantics, for complex logic.
In many ways, they're they're missing
something that makes that we would think
is fundamentally human. It's so
fundamental. Language is so fundamental
to what makes us human.
that without it, if we don't develop it
by age five or six,
we forever stand apart on
many many levels.
It's
it's not just an inability to
communicate.
It's an inability to
model the world.
Words have so much power. Language has
so much power.
Your voice creates
reality.
Your voice creates your reality.
You can't contemplate that enough. You
can't believe that and think about the
ways that that is true enough.
Words
are imperfect.
They get in the way of our direct
experience.
They say the first time that you teach a
child
the word cardinal
is the last time that they see
the cardinal, the bird.
Because every time after that
they just go to their lexicon
instead of experiencing the moment of
cardinal of this bird in front of them
they just go to the reference image
right the clip art. This is how all of
us work and this is how we build up the
model of the world,
right? [sighs and gasps]
But this is a powerful two-edged sword,
right? Because now this word
which allows us to to model and
understand the world and and to to
interact and so on stands in between me
and the world,
right? So we as young children, we must
learn language. We must learn model to
model the world to become fully human to
become
uh yeah to become fully human as as as
judgmental and sad as that sounds. you
know uh these these people who do not
develop language are not realizing full
humanity and it's it's tragic but
they they lost something permanently you
know
to be fully human we must develop
language and develop this modeling
capability this semantics capability
this and that and you know the dog ran
and to catch the ball and retrieved it.
This order of events and a plan and a
story, right?
But then these words [snorts] start to
create illusion, start to create
distortion,
right? And we start to become blind.
You know, the language
limits our mind as well. And you know
someone learning a second language for
instance I'm I'm pretty good I think at
Spanish but uh still learning you know
there are concepts in one language that
you can't express in another right and
sometimes there's words that don't exist
in the other and so on and uh
so you know the the language the words
that we have limit our actual thoughts.
Sometimes it's hard to have a particular
thought in a language.
And this this this is true on such a
personal level. Let's bring this
personally like how do you create your
reality?
Everything that happens to you, all of
your experiences
pass through this word engine.
And
as it passes through, you know, as your
experiences enter your eyes and and you
know, you you you turn them into words
and and a semantic story and so on and
then it you then it's in your brain and
you think, okay, here's what happened.
All those words and filters [snorts]
really limited
your perception, your awareness of the
event, of the experience, right?
And that limiting of of of awareness of
the experience now limits your
opportunities, limits your responses.
You know, if you only see a narrow
portion of what's going on, you're
missing opportunities. You're missing
options,
right? And a lot of times that can feel
like you're trapped, but you're not. You
have a narrow perspective because it's
limited.
Your your perspective is limited. And
what's limiting it? These filters, which
a lot of times are words.
And we assign
emotions and judgments to these words.
You know, I often
uh tell people
that the importance of non-judgment to
leave judgment up to God.
But we are like made up of words and
voice.
And so you have to what you do to
yourself, you have to you have to do
them to your words.
And so if you're if you're not going to
judge yourself, if you're gonna if
you're going to say, "Okay, I leave
judgment up to God. I'm not going to
judge myself.
I'm not going to judge my neighbor. I'm
not going to judge my enemy. I'm going
to leave that up to God."
The way that you make that reality, the
way you bring that into reality
is through your words.
Don't speak about yourself in judgment.
Don't speak about your neighbor in
judgment.
And further, you must go further.
Look at how you speak about yourself and
your neighbor.
Look at the words that you do use. Okay?
You tried not to speak in judgment. You
tried not to judge your neighbor. But
now you said something about your
neighbor. And so you were talking to
your wife and and you said, you know,
he's just so
difficult.
He's so stubborn,
right?
You just locked that in. You just cast a
spell on him. Not on him. You didn't
make him stubborn. What you did is you
made yourself [snorts] think of him as
stubborn. You painted that image. You
put that word this is this is neighbor.
Neighbor equals stubborn. Yeah. Just
like and now next time you look at your
neighbor just like the child looking at
at the unique bird.
You think stubborn neighbor cardinal.
You no longer see the man.
And maybe your neighbor is trying to
work with you. Maybe he's trying to
compromise on something.
But you're pegged now.
Maybe you don't give that conversation
that length of opportunity
to to find out what compromise is
possible, right? Because you you limited
your perspective when you labeled him.
And we do these same things to
ourselves.
You know, when when you
when you say things to yourself,
you say, "I'm so I'm so stupid."
Or something like that.
Your subconscious
hears that
and and believes it
and it believes that and it knows that
you were the one saying it.
And so subconsciously you start to think
of yourself as a bully
who's not not trustworthy, is not
understanding.
You think that you're the bully that
calls you stupid.
It sounds crazy, right? And you you
think you're tough like I know I'm I can
take it or this is just how I talk or
something.
No, the truth is the truth is
subconsciously
part of you believes it.
Part of you is looking at the other part
of you saying, "Why'd you call me
stupid? I was doing my best." Right? And
you were doing your best. Right?
The more your speech is fragmented
and
not well aligned with reality and
intentions,
the more your being is fragmented and
not aligned with reality and intentions.
[snorts]
When you speak of yourself in a confused
way,
when one day you say, "I'm smart," and
the next day you say, "I'm stupid,"
you yourself, your emotions and your
behavior become confused.
You're actually not sure
whether you're smart or stupid.
And this goes so deep.
Trust,
right? A lot of people struggle with
trust. Can I trust you?
But almost all the time
that person is struggling to trust
themselves.
Why are they struggling to trust
themselves? Because they're inconsistent
with themselves. Because they speak one
way about themselves. one day and
another way another because they say to
themselves, I'm going to do this or I I
I think this is important and so and
then they don't do it, right? So, you
know, you say,
I really need to stop smoking or I
really need to I really need to clean
the do the dishes.
Um, you know, dishes have been piling
up. It's getting gross. All right.
If you don't do it,
you observe your own behavior like this
is this person's inconsistent.
They say they're going to do things and
they don't,
right?
And you you stop trusting yourself and
now next time there's a a something that
comes up and
you know you're looking at the problem,
you can't even tell yourself that you're
going to take care of it and trust it.
If you tell yourself, you know, like,
"Oh, I'm going to do the laundry
tomorrow, but not I got to go, but I'll
I'll do the laundry tomorrow." You're
going to keep worrying because you're
not going to believe yourself.
And now all the interactions that you
have with other people,
you feel like you can't trust them. You
can't trust words because you can't
trust your own word.
So if if someone else tells you they're
going to do the laundry, you don't trust
them because you worry about the laundry
not being done, about inconsistency in
general, and that if they didn't do it,
maybe you couldn't wouldn't even do it.
So keep your word.
Be be intentional when you speak a word
and keep it and align. And this will
align your being.
Speak yourself into existence. Speak
who you are. Now,
clarity
is a superpower.
In my last video, I talked about words
and intentional use of words, being very
clear with your words and the dangers of
judgments and emotions slipping into
words
and how this shapes the mind. How this
shapes perception or clarity
in perceiving experiences, perceiving
the world, modeling the world.
Right? The words and the filters
limit your your perception. Right? They
cloud it.
They cloud your clarity.
Perhaps you've heard the term
clairvoyant
or the term the claire's the cla
sentence senses, right? Clare audience
[snorts]
uh cla cognizance clare sentience I'm
reading
um I'm partially reading these because
uh first of all what does cla mean? It
means clear clarity right clear vision
clear hearing clear knowing clear
feeling
but they're all really one. It's about
clarity,
right? And so you know a person who's
clairvoyant or or clare cognizant let's
say is this some mystical magical
superhuman power are they a witch right
no this is something that all of us have
all of us can experience and see far
more than we typically do because of
what I talked about in last video of of
words and our our mind the way our mind
develops filtering our perception of
reality and this is this is a a law of
human development. This happens to all
of us. All of us devel all all of us who
develop language develop this filter of
reality,
right? This clouding of reality, this
clouding of clarity.
And so as adults,
we all then have this struggle
to find clarity, to reestablish clarity,
to reconnect with reality, the direct
experience of reality that we lost as a
child, as a young child, when we learned
language, when we learned the labels and
the model of the world, and that model
became our reality. When the model
became our reality, we lost touch with
the broader, truer, realer
reality.
And
so,
you know, when someone talks about uh a
spiritual awakening or enlightenment or
something like that
and then they talk about
clairvoyance
or insight
and
other um
what people think of as a mystic, my
mystical or a cult or magical
capabilities.
These are just human abilities.
These are human abilities that all of us
have and and cloud
uh naturally as we develop,
you know, and it needs to be cleared
out.
All all of our misconceptions and
judgments need to be cleared out for us
to achieve clarity.
And once we have clarity
and I think of these things a lot in
terms of words and I I think that's
deconstructing words seems to be a very
common theme across religions and and
uh mystical traditions and so on. I'm I
I think I'm well on the path here.
When you
deconstruct the words and your your your
filtering and and interpretations and
judgments and emotions on the words,
your whole experience
becomes clearer,
the things you see, the things you hear,
your inner your inner voice, your inner
knowing, how you think about the world,
your model of the world, your model of
yourself, your model of other people
becomes much clearer.
And you do not have these filters
between you and reality. You do not have
these filters between the reality that
God created. And if you believe in God
and you believe that God
talks to you or or has some information
for you,
you may be missing it.
If you are filtering God's reality,
right, your clouded vision, your your
clouded words and your clouded inner
inner world
are blocking God's voice from reaching
you.
Right?
And so
it is a a very powerful thing. clarity
to clearly see what's going on,
to clearly feel.
I I see other people behaving a certain
way,
[clears throat] and I clearly understand
how they're feeling
and what's going on to make them behave
that way.
And now as I interact with these people,
it's like I see straight through them
and I know how to to behave with them
effectively, right? I know when to be
compassionate, when to set boundaries
and so on,
but all it was was me removing my
confusion and judgment of them and the
and and the situation and and what I'm
observing.
clarity,
washing away all the judgments of
yourself and them.
Give them all up to God so that you can
have clarity so that when you see
something going on,
you don't cloud
your awareness with judgment.
And it is almost magical how much more
effective you can be
with this clarity.
But it's not magic.
It's mystical. It's a mystical journey
we all go on
to lose touch with reality and therefore
lose touch with God
and then to be called to
painfully
reestablish that communication and that
that connection with reality and God.
And yes, when you do that work,
there are blessings
and clarity
is so powerful.
If you followed me for the first couple
videos, thank you.
This is the hard part.
Fear.
Why is it so hard to receive these
messages?
Why is it so painful? Why is there so
much resistance
to these little scientific facts?
What is pain? What is suffering?
I'm going to explain it, I think, pretty
efficiently.
In part one, I talked about childhood
development. And when you develop
language, you develop this model of the
world.
And this model of the world is personal.
It's your model of the world. And your
idea of yourself is all tied up in it.
So it feels personal.
And it literally is is your home. It's
your safe space inside yourself. You
live in this model of reality.
And when that model of reality
inevitably clashes
with the real reality,
that's uncomfortable.
You you you're off the map internally.
And we experience that as as pain, as
discomfort.
uh and we and we have other emotions
depending on kind of the configuration
of the mismatch
of how we're experiencing
our model not fitting reality
and similarly when when people hear
things when I when I say a word to you
know we started this all off with words
right when I say a word to you
and it it touches your your emotions and
your judgments
it can hurt
that word in your model [clears throat]
of the of yourself and your your model
of the world
may feel triggering.
What is this trigger?
A trigger is when we have a feeling and
a a judgment
attached [clears throat] to
some input. Say a word, something
someone said.
Right? This is something that we attach
to it. When the word comes in to our ear
before it enters our mind,
it triggers an attachment of a meaning,
of an emotion, of a judgment.
Oh, this situation's unsafe.
Something like that. And it hurts.
And so we don't want to hear a message
that challenges our worldview.
We don't want we feel like it's
challenging ourselves.
It's challenging our perception of our
self and making our world feel unsafe.
And so when someone [clears throat]
a mystic or an awakened person
shares
something from beyond the veil
when someone says something
that words don't capture well.
Maybe words can't capture this.
Or maybe you're not able to receive the
words or the meaning fully.
It feels like a personal attack and we
resist.
We don't want our world to fall apart.
We don't want our self to fall apart.
When yourself falls apart, when all the
values
and concepts and you thought of yourself
this way, I thought I I'm
so tall. I'm a redhead. I'm American. I
don't know. All these things when the
labels that you assign yourself when you
deconstruct all those
is scary because what's left this was
your concept of yourself that you formed
when you built your model of the world
and yourself together
and it feels like the death of yourself.
It feels existential.
And oftentimes when we feel an
existential crisis, like when we feel
like we're going to die from the
emotions,
it's because of the an existential
mismatch
of our internal model with reality.
And we feel like we cannot maintain our
model.
And that's sometimes true.
But the model is not you.
It feels like it's you.
But it's not you.
And if you can deconstruct the model,
all the words, the stories that make up
the model,
you can align yourself with reality.
And when you're aligned with reality,
there's less pain
because your perception of yourself
and the things that are going on
are not [clears throat]
mismatched.
And furthermore, you're not under an
illusion about how things should be.
That's not quite how it is.
So all that unnecessary pain of
resisting reality
that all of us have to go through
because we build a mental model as as a
child.
It hurts.
But not breaking it down just extends
this this pain and suffering.
So yes, it's it's always painful.
It always feels kind of like death,
but you can do it.
And everything will be much clearer
and more peaceful.
And you will be much more powerful
if you rise to the challenge
and face all your judgments
and all your
emotions.
and clear them out.
You'll feel a lot better.